wordy wednesday: entry #4

INSECURITY

one of my devotions this week was on insecurity & it got me thinking: i'm insecure! {lol}  i have my reasons.  i fear rejection, i'm a people pleaser, i feel that i need approval of others, i like to hear compliments for confirmation of my actions, but on stage i feel like i am a totally confident alternate person.  if that doesn't scream insecurity, i don't know what does.  these are things that i struggle with everyday.

anyways, Joyce writes, "the truth is that we don't need to struggle to get from man what God freely gives us... our worth, value, acceptance & approval come from Him."  that was very uplifting & hit home with me!

i remember one sunday, i was practicing with my church's praise band before performing a new song that i had wrote.  the song was a little bit more confrontational {being that it addressed the church body as a whole & it was dealing with my own personal issues... no, i'm not perfect, if you can't tell at this point}.  i was nervous that i would upset people in the congregation and i was talking with my pastor {also the bass player in the band} and our music director about it and i'll never forget what my pastor said:  "we play for an audience of one."

i don't really know who started that phrase but whoever it was, they were so right and Joyce is too.  why should i care what others think or say about me?  as long as i am trying to please God, His opinion is the only one that matters.

"Am I now trying to win the approval of men, or of God?  Or am I trying to please men?  If I were still trying to please men, I would not be a servant of Christ."

- Galatians 1: 10

who are you trying to please today? just wondering.

song obsession

obsession! yes! and not just because it's on the Hunger Games soundtrack {i'm getting sick of myself saying it so i know you probably are too lol}  but this song is amazing, i think this might be the best duet taylor swift has ever done!  and if you know anything about the book series then you will understand the music video a little bit but its awesome without that knowledge too! check it out!  & while your checking things out, my sister and i did a rendition of this song you can check it out here.  after you follow the link; under songs there should be a play button beside "safe and sound- cover"; click the play button & it should start momentarily!

enjoy!

there's my sunshine

-TODAY'S FORECAST-

68 & SUNNY

today was amazing in the great city of lexington, ky.  i haven't done awkward & awesome in awhile so i thought today i would do sort of an "awesome" post because i'm in such a good mood!

why today was sunny:

- the sun was literally out & shinning, there was a slight breeze, i wore a shirt with short sleeves, my $5 sunglasses, & NO jacket!! {this is amazing for kentucky because it's february & we are suppose to be shoveling snow right about now}

- got my astronomy exam back, got an "A"... what is this madness?!?!?!?!  jesus must love me!

- i was motivated to clean out my car so i could put the top down {i didn't want months of parking papers -not tickets, more like vouchers lol- flying out on the road not to mention all of those receipts I have kept from when i get gas}

- that said-- i drove the first time this year with the top down!!

- i got to cash two checks this week {apparently i hadn't received my check from almost a month ago but hey two checks is awesome for one week, especially now that you have money you hadn't thought you lost to begin with-- like finding 5 dollars in a pair of jeans that just came out of the wash!}

- i went to target and successfully purchased a case for my phone {the first stage of creating a DIY fan case for the Hunger Games!!  another post will soon follow on this project!  don't worry, you will understand!}

- i bought a spring-sh backpack at target as well!  perfect for those stylish days when i don't want to carry a whole lot to class & just be cute! :)

- hamburgers, fried potatoes, and sweet tea for dinner!

- somewhat of a homework free week to look forward to!  YAY!

this week has started off SO great!  it's just what i needed!  a little bit of sunshine to remind me what i'm here for & to remind me that i CAN do this college thing!  i'm sure these feelings will be short lived but i know God is thinking about me because i REALLY needed a day like today to brighten me up!!

i hope your monday was just as blissful!  but if it wasn't i'm sure you will have one soon when you need it the most!!

friday's accomplishments

this week i've been really busy with A LOT of life!  so here are just a few things that i have accomplished this week!!

i took 3 exams: statistics, astronomy, and economics {i almost pulled every single hair out of my head}

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i participated & dominated in a scavenger hunt with my bible study group! i had such a great time! "Too Cool to Be Team Two" um, winning!! lol 

{i had to kiss this lovely lion mascot to a sorority/fraternity haha!!}

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i updated my facebook page to include a "band profile" page powered by reverb nation & i also uploaded a song cover!

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i created an official website for my music!! YAY!  so now people can "book" me!  yes!

{click the pic & check it out!!}

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i've been crocheting like crazy, working on my grandfather's throw!

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last night i successfully watched Never Been Kissed two times in a row!  once by myself then once with my amazing roommate kacie tingle!

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i've also been preparing for a gig tomorrow night in Louisville!  {wish me luck!!}

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so that's what my week has looked like!  i'm so glad it's friday!

the Hunger Games

peeta mellark has stolen my heart & the count down has begun!!  one more month until {in the words of effie} the big big big day!  i am so pumped!!!  i'm picking up my shirt from hot topic today and i've started reading the book again!  i'm gonna try to read slow and soak in every single detail!!  i hope the movie is amazing, i'll be extremely disappointed if it's not!!  comment if you're attending opening weekend or shortly there after!!!

may the odds be ever in your favor!