INSECURITY
one of my devotions this week was on insecurity & it got me thinking: i'm insecure! {lol} i have my reasons. i fear rejection, i'm a people pleaser, i feel that i need approval of others, i like to hear compliments for confirmation of my actions, but on stage i feel like i am a totally confident alternate person. if that doesn't scream insecurity, i don't know what does. these are things that i struggle with everyday.
anyways, Joyce writes, "the truth is that we don't need to struggle to get from man what God freely gives us... our worth, value, acceptance & approval come from Him." that was very uplifting & hit home with me!
i remember one sunday, i was practicing with my church's praise band before performing a new song that i had wrote. the song was a little bit more confrontational {being that it addressed the church body as a whole & it was dealing with my own personal issues... no, i'm not perfect, if you can't tell at this point}. i was nervous that i would upset people in the congregation and i was talking with my pastor {also the bass player in the band} and our music director about it and i'll never forget what my pastor said: "we play for an audience of one."
i don't really know who started that phrase but whoever it was, they were so right and Joyce is too. why should i care what others think or say about me? as long as i am trying to please God, His opinion is the only one that matters.
"Am I now trying to win the approval of men, or of God? Or am I trying to please men? If I were still trying to please men, I would not be a servant of Christ."
- Galatians 1: 10
who are you trying to please today? just wondering.
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